The Heart of It
Monday, March 8, 2010 at 05:01PM Courtney over at HauntJaunts.net recently wrote a brave and emotional post about what draws her to the concept of Phasma Ex Machina. It's not easy to share personal details like that and we're in awe of her openness and honesty.
I had to take care of my mom in the last months of her life. That was almost two years ago. I’m still reeling from the effects. I have a lot of regrets about how so many things went down during that time. First and foremost I’ll always regret not giving her the dying wish she wanted most, which was to just die in her own house.
And then, just five months after saying goodbye to her I was told I had that grapefruit-sized hitchhiker in my chest? I pretty much figured I was about to say adios too.
I’m not skilled enough to put into words the torment my heart felt at the thought of Death doing me part from my beloved husband Wayne way, way, WAY before I was ready. There was a lot of regret and remorse on my part for all the unspoken “I love yous” I’d withheld over the years for dumb reasons, and which I was painfully aware I might not get the chance to make up for.
And that, I have decided, is what the draw of Phasma Ex Machina is for me. It questions the “what if” and brings those answers to light in ways that only serve to emphasize how brief, fragile and precious our lives with our loved ones are –and why we should strive every chance we get to let them know how much we cherish them.
She truly hit the nail on the head.
Thanks for fighting the good fight, Courtney! Read her full post here.








